In Abundance

A few weeks ago Favorite Husband was off to have drinks with some friends. And I felt jealous.  Not that he was leaving, but mostly because I didn't have the same kind of opportunity.  My lack of friends nearby has often made me sad.  Besides FH (favorite husband of course!) my bestest (yes, I know that's not a "real" word) friends live thousands of miles away.  I do know a lot of people here and have my fair share of acquaintances but it seems everyone is in this parenting/marriage stage of life and we all don't have much time to pursue friendships.

After focusing on it for a long time I came to the realization that finding new friends is like dating.  It involves trust, patience and hoping you have the right chemistry.  It also requires being vulnerable and letting your guard down.  Was I ready for all that? 

Instead of lamenting about my lack of friend outings, I started to focus on myself. I started to do things that made me happy (reading, writing, crocheting! -More on that later!).  Sure, I thought, it might be a lonely time, but I do have my husband & the kids.  I have a very supportive family back home and the few friends that I do have (even though some are very far away) are of the highest quality. I decided that was enough.  And just like that my focus shifted from what I wanted to being grateful for the awesome people I already had.

And then abundance appeared.  It appeared in the form of a Bountiful Basket gifted & delivered to my doorstep by my dear friends at themoreonesows.blogspot.com.  (Thank you for all your kindness Sari & Erick), a lunch date with a friend I hadn't seen in awhile, a play date with one of Ayden's friends and his family and then SURPRISE! a new friend appeared.

Driving today to meet said new friend I thought about how really blessed I am.  It's a good time in my life.  I have everything I need and most of what I want.  I am living in abundance and I couldn't be more grateful. 

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I was feeling a little down this afternoon because I had to move some money around to satisfy some financial obligations.  In other words, I was dealing with the expensiveness of life.  I was trying to stay optimistic and kept reminding myself to be thankful that I had enough money to pay the bills.  I am grateful because I have been given more than enough.  I kept saying it over and over again to calm my anxiety.

I had forgotten to check the mail yesterday and so I stepped out my front door to find 2 things awaiting in my box.  One of them was a flyer from a local gym and the other was addressed to me with an unfamiliar return address.  My inner dialogue went something like this "Great, probably another bill!" *sigh* I stepped back inside cautiously opening the envelope only to be surprised to find not a bill but a completely unexpected check!

I am in awe.  Honestly.  And grateful.  And speechless.

I called my Mom and in her happiness she said "See, God always provides."

I am not religious.  (Although I do have a degree in Religious Studies) I wouldn't really call myself spiritual either. (Because for me that denotes something different than what I feel for "God" or my universe) 
 But I do believe in my own version of God.  I believe in the energies of the Universe and about treating people the way you want to be treated.  I believe in karma.  I believe you get what you put in and that sometimes when you least expect it the Universe will provide for you.